Walk Before You Can Run

Wouldn’t it be nice if we could all live a life like the Carousel of Progress. It promises so much yet leaves us with expectations that fail to materialise. Walt himself eulogised about dreams coming true.

But sadly it’s not that simple. Life doesn’t come to you on a plate, there is a lot more to it than that.

I am 34 years old, have worked in the same sector for 18 years, but I am still stuck in the same basic data input job that I have been doing since the age on 16.

I work hard but maybe my expectations of how life is meant to go on. Maybe I think working hard is the be all and end all. I have come to that stage in life where I really want life to give me better apples.

But maybe there is more to it than, maybe I have to strive for those opportunities, maybe it is time to look at things a bit more simply, as the title says, walk before I can run.

I am studying at the moment, putting me on the path to become somewhat of an accountant (whether I follow that path all the way I don’t know at the moment). Let me tell you this now, I hate studying, I hate the whole aspect of being treated like you don’t know what you are talking about. I hated school with a passion and got out of there as soon as I could, But life takes those turns where the job I took when I left school kind of dictates that it leads you down a path where studying is required really to progress.

It’s not easy, I look for excuses not to study time and again, but I eventually get stuck in and currently have passed the first two exams put in front.

This leads me to a couple of other things that I really hope can become a bigger part of my life, as getting a better job gives me more access to better hours and of course the better wages that come with it.

I dream of what I am doing here becoming a bigger thing in my life. I love the hobby of blogging, vlogging, podcasting etc even though I have mentioned before, sometimes it scares me to death being put in front of a camera or behind a mic. But I think I want it all too soon.

I am fairly new to this game, only a few years in and I want it to break big now.  I have been clouded by dreams. The problem is until I have better access to those things, which will come with that better job, that’s not likely to happen. I don’t have regular access to the things I want to write or record about or film at, because I don’t have the funds or the time.

Also I want a lot for our little family. We live to the knuckle a lot of the time. We do a lot of things as cheaply as we can. We just moved house a few months back, but we had to make do with what we could afford and that meant a two bed terrace house on a main road. Neither Lisa or myself grew up in that kind of house. Neither family had lots of money but it was enough to afford a 3 bed semi detached house on a quiet road. I’d love for us to be able to go out and get a nice fairly new reliable car but at the moment that just isn’t possible.

I want to show Sam the world (I don’t just mean Walt Disney World) but we have be sensible and stay in the UK for the most part.

But this is what I am leaning on with this blog, now is time to get back to basics, working on what I can, so that means studying hard, creating those opportunities for myself, one step at a time. Working heard to learn more about vlogging and blogging, honing my skills for when I do have that opportunity to use those skills in a positive way.

Until that day comes when I do have more of a chance, I am going to put the hours in on the here and now to provide for the future.